My mom just called and more bad news from family…
My dad had some kind of sudden attack and they called an ambulance, it seems like therer is some clog or/and poor blood circulation to his brain. His condition is right now steady, good thing. Mom will call later to me tonight (hopefully she remembers).
Somehow this is my fault and I’m the cause of dad’s situation right now, that hurt. But not first time, when mom accuses me for something like this.
Dad has had problems with his hear and blood-pressure before; 3-4 operations on heart; angioplasty. None of them has been succesfull; all got clogged again, the latest one is working.. for now. And now happened this.

Pluuuus, my granny is all messed up because of her medication, well how she has taken them wrong and missused. Her painkillers are banned now and she can’t buy them from drugstore. She had been violented… well at the drugstore, the things went ugly… the polices was called there. I don’t want to know the rest.

Feeling empty and dull now… I just sit here.